Travis and I went on our weekly hike to Stewart falls on Wednesday and it was absolutely the most perfect day. I love hanging out with my brother. He did freak me out when he made it to the top of the waterfall. He seriously has no fear. He makes me so nervous but it's always a good time. I love Travis, he never ceases to amaze me.

CLOSURE

So I had lunch with someone who meant a lot to me in my life. I was so happy to finally find closure and to finally be able to be friends. It was a really good talk and I feel like a whole new person. It was so good to see this special someone and catch up. He really meant a lot to me and I am happy to be able to be close with his family again. I have full permission and now I have another best friend in my life. What a beautiful day.

I will be writing thoughts more often, because I am at work every night M-F and we can't go on facebook so blogspot is a good way to pass the time.

It's been way to long!

Today I am feeling powerful. I have made some big decision this week, but also have been able to be a part of people's lives much more lately. What I am happy about!!

1.) I have a new job, I work for personal wealth academy, and Katie got me a job :)! I work every night from 4:30-9:00 then Saturdays 9-3 so I get pretty good hours. I am a receptionist and I like it.

2.) I have changed majors and am now going to do psychology, which I will love a lot better.


3.) I think I will be managing a promotion for the Jazz games which I am way excited about, I hear back tomorrow :)!

4.) I am going to Costa Rica in December the 4th-14th. I can't wait!!

5.) I get to see my brother and sister-in-law darling baby Edan now pretty much anytime I want. I am in love with Edan Charlotte ;)!

Things are just looking up for me. Life has its ups and downs and today I feel happy and secure. I feel like I am doing things for myself and it makes me smile. It's my life right...

DISNEYLAND and L.A.

I was so excited to fly to California Wednesday. I didn't know exactly what to bring, so I was the one with the biggest luggage. Julie said, "at least you have everything you need" and I did. I had no room for souvenirs, but I didn't need to buy anything.

We got our tickets to Disneyland for $55 off E-bay. What was hilarious is that we had to do a short of a drug deal to get them. (That's just the best way to describe it.) Kyle the clubs President at UVU met a guy on a corner who gave us twelve 8 day pass Disneyland tickets. They don't check your I.D. so it worked fine. We got a phone call around 6 p.m. to pass them through the fence over by Space Mountain. Kyle had to leave his drivers license behind in order to get the tickets. It was pretty sketchy but we saved almost $45.

We spent Thursday bouncing back and forth between the parks. I rode everyone ride I wanted at least once. The lines where extremely short, which made it easy to go on everything. I didn't just see the rides; I visited the Tortilla and Sour dough factories and enjoyed the fantasia play at the end of the night. We stayed from the moment it opened, until it closed. It was a blast. My favorite ride was by far the classic, “Splash Mountain”, but I did enjoy the haunted mansion featuring the "Night before Christmas."

The conference went well Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. We took a lot back with us to the school. Ideas for fund-raisers, service events, and even school activities. We also learned more about libel and laws when hosting events and what could happen. It was a great way to be informed, especially for me who was just elected last Tuesday.

It was sad to leave California. We had a quick stop in L.A. on Hollywood Blvd. where we got pictures with a dressed up batman, joker, and cat woman. We put our hands and feet in the prints of Will Smith and the Harry Potter stars. We even saw the stars placed in the cement of Michael Jackson and Johnny Depp! We only had 20 minute to spare, so we ran as fast as we could to see as much as we could while managing to capture pictures of course : )!

Lucky me, I got bumped at the end of the night and spent an extra night in CALI. I got to stay in the Westin Hotel that night with free food and a ticket to anywhere I wanted up to $400 dollars within the US. I was lucky and excited! Anyone wanting to go to Boston and New York I will be going this summer, I can’t wait to see home.

I'll post picures as soon as I get them up. I left Wed.-Mon. to Cali and am now leaving tom. for North Carolina tell Sunday. Than I am back Monday and leave to Arizona tell that following sunday. Life is really good sometimes! I can't wait to see COOPER THOUGH.

GOOD NEWS!!

After having two emotional breakdowns, which is what I am choosing to call it, I made STUDENT GOVERNMENT!!! I wrote a letter of intent this weekend, did a killer collage (Sophia my sister –in-law stepped in and completed it! I can’t take nearly half the credit), and essay questionnaire. I had Lisa Lambert the head of the mentor program write me a letter of recommendation as well as Tom Merrell a member on council. They said the nicest things about me, I felt so loved. I was so excited and nervous to turn everything in knowing I would be interviewing with my x-boyfriend. After my parents read over everything and thankfully made some great corrections, I turned it in right on time.

After having two days to write everything, which added to the sob fest, I got a call on Monday night telling me I had an interview Tuesday at 2. I feel like I nailed the interview even if I was all smiles and my face was bright red. Some people get really shaky voices when they are nervous, but me, my face goes red.

Anyways they called me to tell me I made the Club Ambassador position with another thing added. They asked me if I could fly to L.A. with them Wednesday afternoon for a convention that goes tell Sunday and includes a day spent at Disneyland. I am so excited. I made the position and get to go to California, stay in a hotel, free plain ticket, and have my food paid for. What more can I want. I have to pay my Disneyland ticket, but I everything else is covered.

In conclusion I get exactly what I want, a position on council with an extra cherry on top, a trip to Southern California. I am so happy.

Alone time and my little family!!

I am so excited to go see little Cooper, he is already growing up so fast. He is a little trooper. Jon, his dad, is a huge patriots and Red Sox fan and so he dressed Coop in little sports outfits. He is so adorable; he is already about a month old. I get to go out there the 19th I can't wait. I have not seen my sisters sense Christmas. I can't wait!

I spent Halloween alone. I was so excited. I helped me sister-in-law be adorable in her angel costume and then went home to watch Star Dust. Thought it was pretty cool with its art twist but cheesy at the same time. I was just happy to pig out and have no responsibilities. I am around people constantly, am I selfish to just want to be alone. I turned off my phone, turned on the T.V., got a blanket, some ice cream, and vegged. Halloween was beautiful this year, just the way I wanted it.

My brother’s kids are so adorable to. Sierra and Caitlyn dressed up like little fairies and Holden was an Indian. They were so adorable. They live in California and so I don’t get to see them much either. If they where hear I would have totally gone trick or treating with them. I just miss my nieces and nephews. I love kids; Halloween wouldn’t be the same without children.

Some Strength

I had an emotional breakdown late last night, which was completely embarrassing. I hate when this happens. I get little to no sleep, but I can't help it. Everyone needs to cry sometimes I guess. Its actually proven healthy (or I will just keep telling myself that). My brother and Sophia helped me a lot. Than Brandon and Lana came and got me, to go on a drive. It was really sweet of them. We talked until 2 a.m. I was exhausted, but I needed their advice and to feel comfort. I rarely break down, but when I do, which was these past two days, it rains hard.
In Elder Bednar's talk Called "With Hand and Heart," I found a really inspiring quote that really comforted me.

"There is a destiny that makes us brothers (and sisters);
None goes his way alone:
All that we send into the lives of others
Comes back into our own."
- Edwin Markham

I really liked this poem because it taught me that it’s okay to surrender and get help. We are never alone. I am there for them, I care about them, I try to help them and lift their spirits when they are sad. They repaid the price to me. I think friendship is a cherished thing.

Another quote I read in Bednar’s talk was this:

"When we treat people merely as they are, they will remain as they are. When we treat them as if they were what they should be, they will become what they should be."

-adapted from a quotation by Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe

This really stuck out to me because my friends really see my potential and are always encouraging me to progress and see the better side in me. It would be hard if they treated me like I was upset and a mess all the time, because that’s all I would be.

I am just thankful to have close friends I can go to for comfort. Friendship is something no one can take from you and is something you would be lost without.